Thought reaches its fulfillment in action. So here's a
post about the title that tries to think about blogging about thinking about
blogging.
Incidentally, I just did a Google search [anyone wondering
why I'm not using the easier verb "Googling"?] on 'thought' and
'action', and got this whole bunch of "quotes by memorable
personalities" from a multitude of sites that put up plenty of quotes on this
that, as far as I've gone through, connect Thought and Action in one way
- first sentence.
Now - excellent when it's said, and etcetera, but how eternally
hard it is for me - in the context of Blogging - to wait for my fingers to
catch up with my thoughts! Not like it is an uncommon problem, yeah.
But how do you manage it
then? How do you let your mind slow
down so it's visually captured? Or how else does it work for you?
In fact, at times, I consciously rebel against writing anything at all,
because I'm not able to capture my entire train of thought, that starts with
something I just happen to notice around me - a tiny little thing - and takes off from
there. I move on to – what I believe are loftier thoughts – and something
clicks somewhere, something else short-circuits; a few more like that, and I feel
a problem arising. Almost like the Titanic being raised up.
So far, good. I can write about this Titanic of mine being raised
up. But how did I get there?
So far, in order to put it down into words that can clearly convey this to a reader – an outsider to my mind – it has been
extremely difficult, going backwards, step-by-step, until I reach the trigger
that set off a chain of reactions that reacted with others already present to
switch on some other things and switch off other somethings, and slowly seek a
prompt from my 'conscious' me. Mostly because I've got a lovely memory for
things like these.
Now, if I'm to write anything that is even close to satisfactory
in my eyes, I can't do something that I'd feel was a poor job. So here's where
I get stuck in a sort of eternal limbo, at every writer-to-be moment in my
Time. Because I begin to think about writing (nowadays, typing) about my writing,
and how I'd even go about it, given all this. And then try to force an effect
that creates a 'break' in my pattern by recollection.
And I miserably forget. I've got my higher secondary to thank for
that; long story. (But that probably won’t be another blog post 'cos of
you-know-why.)
And then I begin to think about my convictions in life, my
belief systems, and wonder how futile such an exercise (writing about my own wandering(-)wonderings) is, given the conditions
of certain realities of certain sections of people living around us – realities
that are there for us to See, but which many of us do not comprehend that we
only ‘see’, and not ‘understand’. About how my writing and my “spontaneous
[really?] overflow of [thought]” is going to effect any sort of change in their
lives. And how utterly ridiculous a
stream of thought about an individual dilemma, such as this, would sound to them,
when compared to the horrible miseries they face on a daily basis.
[As an aside,
how much of the writing and academising and intellectualising and celebritising
in the educational/intellectual/research space would really be possible on an
empty stomach, and knowing that there are several other empty stomachs whose continued existence and survival depend on you solely?
Something I’ve always wanted to ask every single one of the theorists and
academics and public ‘intellectuals’ and philosophers I’ve read and studied
about. More on that later, (hopefully) as I come back to the point of this
blog.]
I pause.
And now while writing, I pause too. ‘Cos I’m trying to remember
how this confusing process happens – not just once, but about four to five
times daily. See the Selectively Short-Term Memory I’m talking about?
Anyway, that is just going to be among one of my million
unfinished ‘written thoughts’.
And the above sentence is a 7-Zip Ultra-mode compression of a few of my
frustrations that I’ve found no vent to, for quite some time.
Anyway, here’s to
another (new!) day!
I'd like to comment about the part of your blog that talks about how your fingers can't catch up with your thought resulting in you not being able to write.
ReplyDeleteYes, the thought process is faster than everything else. Talking is also slower than thinking but you manage to do it fairly well. Writing is EVEN slower and one needs to put in extra effort in procuring writing material to begin with. Indeed, it is a tedious task.
But my thought is this- when you DO write something, you're pre-supposing a reader. You're mentally talking to a particular audience in mind and that tends to slow down your thought process to a certain extent. You don't just articulate your thoughts but you present it and package it. You also take into consideration the look and feel and sound of it.
You could shoot off on a Gestaltian tangent into a stream of consciousness, but that's ok.
The end result of a fully written piece may not include ALL your thoughts. But it contains the essence of your message and it is communicated in the best way possible. If you DO remember a point that you missed and you feel you must include it, you can always type it (not write it, unfortunately). The edit feature tends to be a blessing at times.
Good to have your perspective on that.
DeleteYour comment has reminded me of several things I used to do, but which I've forgotten over time. Thank you!
May the Ride be with you.